Too Blessed To Be Stressed
Much like every other American, COVID-19 has caused me a great amount of stress. Because of COVID-19, my "best year yet" has turned into one of great financial loss. I lost income from clients who stopped their coaching because they were furloughed. I also lost out on the opportunity to present at 3 retreats. I have spent the last few months trying to adapt, coming up with new ways to serve my clients and recover the lost income. I have had many sleepless nights, “ugly cry” prayers to God pleading Him to guide me, and many internal conversations reminding myself this is not a sign of failure. Rather this is an opportunity for me to learn about grit and resilience. I am being tested to see if I am fully committed and if I'm determined enough to get back up after such an unexpected knockout.
As I laid awake in the middle of the night, once again, pondering what's next for me and how this COVID-19 situation plays a role, I surprisingly felt myself smile and was washed over with bliss. In spite of what is going on in my business, I realized I am truly blessed. I have a husband who adores me, 2 healthy daughters who simply want me near, and a house filled with all the things I need and more. I have a growing social network with supportive friends and people who inspire me to keep pressing on.
As I laid there basking in the blessedness and feeling grateful for all the things I do have, I realized I am practically living the life of my dreams. Sure the funds aren't coming in as I would like them to, but they are on their way. I also realized that as vulnerable as entrepreneurship has been, it is the gateway to my dreams. Each day I work hours that allow me to honor the values that are near and dear to my heart, like being able to pick my daughters up from school and spending the remainder of the day enjoying their company. Because I only work with my best ideal clients, I feel an abundance of joy and fulfillment. They truly are incredible people who are growing and stretching, just like me.
If anything, COVID-19 has provided me an opportunity to pause and gain great clarity of how truly blessed I am. At this moment I am feeling "too blessed to be stressed." I trust God is with me and that He is guiding and helping me move forward. I am where I need to be in this moment and will be where I need to be in 6 months, and even 1 year from now. Life, nor COVID-19, is happening to me. It is happening for me.
What is life providing you? Please comment below.